Uncertainty and insecurity. Things I have in spades. I do not mean to say this as a horrible “woe is me” cry or attention. I mean it as I try to better myself. I do not like cutting off possibilities. It feels like I am limiting myself, constraining myself–and I hate being boxed in. But that means that life get very uncertain and a little directionless. I have (for good or for bad) a lot of hope, and I could not give up on my dreams. But would be illogical to continue as if there was plenty of time left. So I am going to have to start making decisions, and will need to constrain myself. Thus, some (minor) constraints. No porn. No video games. No heavy drinking. Working out at least once a day. At least thirty minutes a day here. At least an hour a day studying something something I do not understand fully. At least an hour a day spent on theater/drama/passions. At least an hour each day spent on making a future for myself. A book a week.